Author: Amy Lane
Genre: Same Sex Contemporary Romance
Part of a series: No.
Length: 320 Pages.
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Release Date: 24 February 2012
This book was: An ARC from NetGalley, free in exchange for an honest review.
Chase Summers has a razor blade to his wrist and the smell of his lover’s goodbye clinging to his skin. He has a door in his heart so frightening he’d rather die than open it, and the lies he’s used to block it shut are thinning with every forbidden touch. Chase has spent his entire life unraveling, and his decision to set his sexuality free in secret has only torn his mind apart faster.
Chase has one chance for true love and salvation. He may have met Tommy Halloran in the world of gay-for-pay—where the number of lovers doesn’t matter as long as the come-shot’s good—but if he wants the healing that Tommy’s love has to offer, he’ll need the courage to leave the shadows for the sunlight. That may be too much to ask from a man who’s spent his entire life hiding his true self. Chase knows all too well that the only things thriving in a heart’s darkness are the bitter personal demons that love to watch us bleed.
My review
This really was a look into a very dark mind, and a very eloquent one at that.This book was a journey of endurance and is defiantly not for everybody. I don't think any of the people in this book had very healthy relationships but Chase and Tommy both seemed to be living in denial. The sad thing is that you want so badly for it all to blow up so Chase will stop being that little boy trapped in the red room. Watching Chase's life unravel was like watching a car crash, you know you shouldn't keep watching but you just cant seem to pull your eyes away.
I spent a lot of this book feeling like I was intruding into someone's pain but I found this book to be compelling and sad and at times very painful to read but I am glad that I have read it. There are moments of pure joy and of pure desperation proving that this author truly does understand the quagmire of a troubled mind and can translate that on to the page so you feel you are experiencing it with the people you meet in her books. This book is a journey into a broken mind and you are invited to drown in its murky water and then learn to swim right along with Chase. This book will upset some but If you want a book to move you read this!!